Trust & Obey

I worry, I struggle and I fret about my future. Such are the woes of a college senior.

At the end of the day, getting down and sincerely praying is the only thing that's important, because He rules. Monday morning, as usual, I was doing all of the unneccessary things listed above...I love it when the Daily Bread addresses exactly what's on my mind. "Consecration is not the giving over of the calling in life to God, but the separation from all other callings and giving over of ourselves to God, letting his providence place us where He will." Instead of praying about grad school, I prayed that He would use me as he saw fit.

God is humorous.

I got a call within the hour, telling me I'd been accepted to grad school. Here I was in the clinic, crying tears of joy, scolding myself for crying at the clinic of all places, and I forgot to thank God first...He was third or fourth on the list. I have much to learn, and much to prioritize. However, I am grateful and humbled, and look forward to three more years of school...especially the cadaver's...I have been waiting so long to appreciate the human body in its fullness.

Love

I like it when PJ tells us about his conversations with atheists. A lady asked him why being unequally yoked was so viewed so unfavorably...love was what counted right?

Those types of answers catch me off-guard...I have no reply to them...or lame replys at best. PJ went on to explain that love can mean many things and be expressed in different ways. You don't have to do physical things to love someone. There are many ways to show love...you can love someone without having to marry them. In Blue like Jazz, Donald writes "we learn that we are lovable or unlovable from other people. That's why God tells us so many times to love each other." Love, in the marriage sense parallels Gods love for us, and it should be held with utmost care, and the command should be obeyed.

In other news, school starts tomorrow. I am gonna have to juggle like none other this quarter.

Grace upon Grace

Today PJ shared a beautiful analogy about God's grace.
Imagine you are standing beneath Niagara Falls and its abundant waters are flowing over you. You hold a cup in your hands, upside-down to prevent anything from being caught. This is the spiritual state I oftentimes am in. God freely pours out his grace, waiting for us to receive it, and although we may make mistakes, we may trip & fall, and we may purposely cave into our desires, if we just turn this cup right-side up and accept this grace, we can have the desire to fight to be better once again.

No one is above the grace of God.